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Medication Needed

Post on March 3rd, 2010 by Jodie

First off, we’re fine. We’re all fine and no one was hurt.

But there should be some other phase for when you get rear-ended at a Railroad Crossing with your daughter in the car. Freaked the fuck out doesn’t quite cover it. I am no longer ashamed of having a healthy supply of xanax in the house. Days like this, that shit comes in real handy. Especially when, after talking to my Hubbin for a few minutes he asks me if I have any or have already taken some. The answer is a big fat YES.

Thank god too, because Boo was really looking forward to today with me and I’ve been on the phone and excusing myself constantly to regain composure. She’s so awesome. More than awesome.

Currently she’s dancing around in her new ballet stuff - she starts class tomorrow - to a Tinkerbelle song and it’s warming my heart and making me relax and breathe easier. God I love her.

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Reason to smile

Post on January 5th, 2010 by Jodie

Two things have happened in the last twenty-four hours that have made me smile - real, big, genuine smiles.

One - My four year old daughter successfully Hot Boxed me (aka Dutch Oven) last night and it was hilarious. We were hiding from Daddy and I told her no giggling. So we snuggled under a blanket and then she lets one rip. It was epic too. I don’t know what that girl eats at school but man….phew! So I’m laughing and gasping for air and she’s telling me “Mommy, get down! Daddy will see you.” I’m shaking out the blanket and then she starts giggling and well, maybe you had to be there.

Two - I opened my door this morning to find a package from Harper Collins Press. Even though my short-lived communication with the Crybaby Publicist went south, she did put me in touch with Kevin Sampsell. And today I got his new book A Common Pornography: A Memoir. Which just goes to show that even though the Crybaby Publicist was horribly unprofessional to me, something good came out of it.

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Jitterzzzzzz

Post on December 1st, 2009 by Jodie

Last night I had one of those nights where I knew I had to get to sleep and couldn’t. So the more I stayed away, the more anxious and weird I got. I started reading and that kept me up until half past midnight. When I finally turn the light off, Boo (aka, adorable four year old daughter) comes sneaking in and is wide awake. I bring her back to her room and then cuddle with her until her finally stops wiggling and falls asleep. It’s now 2am.

I stumble back upstairs and flip-flop in my own bed for another 30-40 minutes. The Buns (aka, adorable 20 month old son) starts in with the tea kettle screech at 5am. I feel like I’m having a heart attack. I feel like I’ve been dumped and am on speed and smoked too many cigarettes. Maybe it’s the feeling of snorting powdered sugar, who knows. But I feel like I’m blinking over tin foil and will need a face full of chloroform to get any sleep.

I leave for AZ in four days. I have to get at least one book review in to Minnesota Reads before I go and about seven to write while I’m away.

On the list:
The Ghost in Love by Jonathan Carroll
Bloodsucking Fiends/You Suck by Christopher Moore - yes, the answer is yes, I will read any vampire novel.
Beat the Reaper by Josh Bazell
Moonlight in Odessa by whatzherface - too lazy to look up.
Out-takes from a Marriage by the wonderful and lovely Ann Leary.

Okay, so it’s not seven it’s five. But chances are I’m going to finish what I’m reading now and write about that too.

If only I could sleep for more than three hours at a time.

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Feeding my love of cake and the supernatural…

Post on November 27th, 2009 by Jodie

The Bake Shop Ghost
by Jacqueline K. Ogburn
Illustrated by Marjorie Priceman

I picked this wonderful little book on title alone, because who doesn’t like cake or ghosts? The story revolves around Miss Merriweather, the town sour-puss spinster and bake shop owner. When Miss Merriweather dies, the bake shop closes and the town mourns not her passing, but their loss of delicious goodies. But like all who pass and leave unfinished business, Miss Merriweather’s ghost remains. She runs off the revolving door of chefs who take over her shop until spunky Annie Washington moves in. Annie is not scared or deterred by the ghost of Miss Merriweather. And when the ghost challenges Annie to bake a very special kind of cake, Annie bakes and bakes and bakes and bakes! Always showing Miss Merriweather kindness and respect, Annie finally unlocks the key to Miss Merriweather’s sadness in a sugary-sweet ending - complete with recipe!

I like the illustrations in The Bake Shop Ghost. Marjorie Priceman gives us a delicate ghost, wispy and sad. I think this is important because so easily kids can grasp the concept of ghosts and bring it to a very negative, scary place. And Miss Merriweather has a purpose for her haunting, she needs something for herself - it’s not just about scaring people. Annie Washington is a great heroine. She’s determined to make things right for the ghost and with hard work and perseverance (and the right recipe) it pays off! It’s a pleasure to read books with your kids that set the right example.

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Oh yeah…..

Post on November 18th, 2009 by Jodie

I have been sitting here struggling to come up with something to write about since I have too many open wounds to write about my own life right now. Then I remembered that I shot NaBloPoMo to hell last weekend and therefore do not need to put so much pressure on myself to blog everyday. Somedays, like today, I would only spew shit that is only important to me and maybe one other person. And that’s not interesting.

I’ll leave you with this Momdom gem just to give you a glimpse as to why things are the way they are:

Boo (from the bathroom): Maaaaaa-oooommm! I need help whhyyyyyyyyyyy-peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeing.
Me (enters bathroom): Okay.
Boo: My tummy still hurts. I think after we wipe it’s time for some cuddles.
Me (bowing deeply) Yes, master.

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NaBloPoMo - FAIL!

Post on November 16th, 2009 by Jodie

I couldn’t even blog for 15 days in a row. What the hell is wrong with me? Yesterday went by in a blur of too much beer at the Vikings game to too long of a dinner with kiddos watching AFV, and then the arrival of The Alaskan Poet. I stayed up too late reading Moonlight in Odessa - from MNReads.com - and then dealt with Boo sneaking into our room twice.

I did however get to have breakfast at the usual place with the usual suspects. Birthday Girl and The Twinks joined us, so it was lots of eggs and hashbrowns for all.

I’m far too tired to do or say anything intelligent so I’ll just stop right here.

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Casa de Poop

Post on November 10th, 2009 by Jodie

Both kids are super poopy today? What the hell? (I almost spelled ’super’ ’souper’, just for comedic effect.) The Buns has had two super poopy blow-out that required baths and clothing changes. Boo on the other hand still has a squirmy tummy. My hands are raw from washing them so much. Yeah, I do feel a little like Lady Macbetch.

By the way, Happy Birthday Neil Gaiman.

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A weepy Momdom moment…

Post on November 9th, 2009 by Jodie

Boo has had crummies in her tummy today, so we’ve been in the bathroom for a long period of time. While we were getting cleaned up and ready for bed, I told her that she could always tell Mommy and Daddy when she wasn’t feeling well. That as Mommy and Daddy we will always try to help make her feel better. I think she was happy to hear that because she wrapped her skinny little arms around my neck and gave me tons of kisses. It’s this game we play that started when she first went into the French Immersion school. I would give her a big kiss and say “Mmmmmmmmmwah”, which she smarty took as “Moi”. So then she would say “No, se moi” and I’d give her a kiss and it ends in giggles and muddled french.

So we were doing that in the bathroom getting ready for bed, when she said, “No, Mommy, now just me”. Meaning, she just wanted to give me a kiss, by herself. So she plants a big, long kiss on my forehead. Then she said, “There Mommy, that was the biggest kiss of my heart.” And I’m so lucky to have it, to have her.

Night night little Boo. Your tummy will feel better tomorrow. Promise.

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On cheering myself up…

Post on October 28th, 2009 by Jodie

I have been up on and off since 4:30AM. It’s abysmal. And for once, it’s not The Buns waking up with his five alarm fire scream and subsequent two hours of crying. This was all me. Boo crept up into our room at about 4:18. We went back down to her room and then she and I were awake for another half hour. For whatever reason she was just wide awake and wanted to talk to me. She fell asleep between 5-5:15 and then slept until 6:30. I, on the other hand, wafted through anxiety-ridden wakefulness, half-sleep, deep relaxation while awake and maybe a cat-nap. I feel barely functional. Like maybe I shouldn’t drive small children around.

Luckily, The Buns goes into daycare today. Which leaves me home with Boo. And we are still struggling with her attitude and willingness to do what she’s told. It’s wearing me down. This is my favorite time of year and I don’t feel like I can fully enjoy it. I’m seriously considering buying her the new Tinkerbelle movie, just so I don’t have to deal with her. And then when she watches it and wants to watch it again right away, I’ll say yes and sleep.

I hate feeling this way. I confuse it so easily with anxiety and depression. Then I start thinking there is something deeply wrong. And soon I’m in a panic spiral thinking I have all kinds of terminally diseases which all stem from the fact that I am morbidly obese and every other woman in my family is dead.

We went to the pumpkin patch last night with the kids and they have this hay-bale picture area with pumpkins and mums and gourds, etc. We have our family picture taken there every year. It’s just my thing. When I look back at the those pictures it’s so obvious that I have gained a good 70-80 pounds in the last four years. This year’s was the worst. Even when you crop it, so it’s just our faces there is still a very fat unhappy girl underneath it all. One of my favorite things and I’m not happy.

I feel like I will snap out of this, I want to. But even if mentally I’m feeling better, physically there is still the fat issue. Maybe I’ll apply the Betty Draper diet to myself, just drink red wine and have cigarettes for dinner - pick at but not actually eat a salad - coffee for a snack. The upside to that is you get Don Draper for dessert. Yum!

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…Female Rain

Post on October 26th, 2009 by Jodie

I am looking up “ambient noise” today. Both my children are sleep deprived. My daughter was up at 5 AM today and is currently talking a nap. School has started and she’ll be late, but that’s fine. She has been a complete pill since Friday, not listening, fussing, complaining, etc. This morning, when I saw the tidal wave of tantrum about to crest and crash over my living room, I simply put her in bed. After about ten minutes of her not coming out, I went in to check on her and she was in a ball on her bed, I covered her up and we snuggled. She fell asleep within two minutes.

My son has never slept in. He wakes up before 5 Am and talks to himself for about an hour then howls to get out of his crib and start the day. Literally, he howls. This usually wakes everyone up and we put pillows over our heads and wait until at least 6 AM before going to get him. My son takes his daily nap between 9-11 until 12-3. He’s like a cable installer. It’s ridiculous. Ridiculous, I say!

So we are going to try some white/ambient noise in both the kids’ rooms, and maybe in ours too. In the course of my research I came across a really cool site with natural sounds and fabulous explanations of how they were recorded, etc. And then I came across a link for “female rain”. The phrase struck such a chord with me that I Googled it and found the following poem. I’m taking a page from Ann Leary here, she’s posts poetry quite a bit and it’s always good. So I hope you enjoy.

Male Rain, Female Rain, & Awakening
by Agnes Tso

male rain
He comes
riding on the wind
kicking up dust
bending the trees
blowing flakes of rain
He flees past my window
to a distant rumble

In-laws beware of him
who mocks the braves
as his features are majestic illusions
his knife the cutting cold
and his soul a drifter

female rain
she pregnant with rain
comes
quite
softly
and gently
in the night

At dawn she gives birth
to little droplets of rain
and for days on end

awakening
male rain has come and gone
female rain is fading in the distance
father sun is here
and mother earth is awakening

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