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it has not been so long and so forgotten that i don’t feel actual pain for those people i know trying so hard to conceive. they are on a lonely trail, one that has been trodden many times, but in every different way. my heart breaks truly and tentatively for two very special people indeed.

got great news on the down-low yesterday and was elated. heard the worst today and my throat is tight.

i remember that day.

that day when perseverance prevailed! you beat the odds, you gave mother nature the middle finger, albeit respectfully. you were normal. then spots. then cramps, worse cramps. a painful *plop*, a violent gush of blood and then nothing. a void. you had been blessed with a visitor and then beyond your will vacated. cruel doesn’t even cover it.

so with love and affection my thoughts and prayers go out for those i know - and those i don’t. and again i am crippled by the desire to help and being totally helpless.