the cosmic thread
i just read on another mom blog (an aquaintance, of sorts) that she too had issues with bleeding. unprovoked bleeding. you remember my incident at ridgedale?
it amazes me that even if you think you are the only one going through what you are going through, that no one can possibly relate - it’s not true. someone else is looking down, seeing a pool of blood on themselves and thinking, oh shit, i’m losing my baby. because no one in their right mind would see that amount of blood and think, “i’m sure it’s fine!”
and it’s tragic and horrible and sad.
one of the strange lessons that presented itself to me while going through inferility treatment was that no matter how shitty i felt, there was another woman in the lobby feeling the same way, probably worse. and not that you want that. i’d never want anyone to know what that’s like, it was beyond awful. but i wasn’t the only one shedding tears in the bathroom, that’s for sure.
and this last time, there was a women there with her son, they were doing IUI. it was the only method they could afford. she was beside herself, she didn’t think it would work. i wanted to hug her.